holy shit

i forgot i had this blog. to make a long story short, i am dating the guy i was writing about for the last few entries (the boyfriend that was/is emotionally unavailable. the dude whose friend i ended up dating at the same time. i’m a harlot – whateva whateva.)

i, like, love him now. and like, i want to have a family with him one day. but like, he needs to work on his intimacy problems. and like, he’s kind of my boss now too. but you know, love is never perfect, and i can’t help it that i love the shit out of him.

i was being ambiguous in my last few entries, but we started being secret lovers dating back to october, but then i started getting restless adlskjfsakljfsdkajflsakjfs;kadljfs;adjfk; and i fell in love with one of his friends sdkfjadklfjsaklfds;akf and then his friend fell in love with me asdkfjalksfdjslkjfld and then he realized that – holy shit, i’m the woman for him and that he loves me asdkfjsaklfjksladjflksa but then i broke up with him anyway for his friend, who btw lives in NY and is still an awesome dude adkfjsadklfjsklfdsaklfjlksd but then i changed my mind AGAIN and decided that 2 years of being off and on and working on his commitment/intimacy issues wasn’t something i wanted to give up on yet. so then we got together. and we have problems sometimes, but other times, we balance each other out. and he gets that i work a lot, and he works a lot too, and we work together, and we get time apart because we both travel for different clients, but then we also get to travel together for work which feels like a romantic getaway sometimes asdlfjsaklfjsdkaljfalsdjfklsajfklsadjfkslajflkjkladsf man i thought i’d be engaged at 25 and i am nowhere near it and i’m not even sure it’s something i want in the near future alsdkfjaklsdfjklsajfklad boy oh boy do your priorities change as you get older.